I Haven't Gone Anywhere!!!!

HELLO ALL!!!!

So, for some ODD reason I haven't been able to access my Blogger from my computer which is a Mac...I have NO idea why! *sad face* BUT at the moment I'm on a PC and can get to it just fine, as you can see.

Like, I can see my blog if I type in the URL but I can't get to my homepage where I can post and stuff. It keeps saying that Blogger has changed it's settings or something and I have to switch my accounts from Gmail to somethin...I really don't know what the big hoopla is all about but I'd like for it to get fixed PDQ!! (Pretty Darn Quick)

It's been driving me insane not being able to posts and update myself on everyone's blogs that I follow...like seriously it's been heart-wrenching. I HATE IT!

So, please pray that everything gets fixed so I won't have to find a PC anytime I need some Blogger in my life!

Peace, love, and happiness!

P.S--It feels SOOOO incredibly good to be able to post again!

21 Years Ago On This Day...

I WAS BORN!!!!

I'M FINALLY 21!!!

I PRAISE GOD FOR ANOTHER YEAR!!!

I Do!...I Do???

Marriage. What a huge, meaningful....SCARY WORD!!!

We've all thought about it be us man or woman.

I will be turning 21 on Friday (Whoo-hoo!!!) and I've come to realize that well obviously, I'm getting older and marriage may be in my future, possibly my near future if that's what God has planned.

EEEEKKKKKK!!!!

Does that not sound scary?! Yes, yes it does! I don't even have a boyfriend at the moment or a person of interest for that matter! And my last relationship was in 2008...yea, I know!

I definitely want to be married to my soulmate some day but at the time, the thought of being married seems so....i n t a n g i b l e.

Like, I can't see myself living with a man, sharing my bed with a man, sharing my bathroom, my closet, my drawers, my space with a man.

But on the flip side, I can definitely see someone genuinely loving me, waking up every morning to someone I can call my own, holding hands with someone and it mean more than just 2 sweaty palms touching each other, loving someone unconditionally flaws and all. THAT I look forward too. *Smile*

But am I truly ready to hold on through thick and thin, through sickness and health, through the good times and the bad, through the "I love you with all my heart's" and the "I absolutely can't stand you today's", til death does us part??? Food for thought I suppose.

Marriage is not a play-thing!

All-in-all, I will continue to pray that God prepare me mentally and physically for holy matrimony and send my husband (that feels so weird to type) my way when he is ready for me to have him.

What are your thoughts on the "M" word?!

I Need A Bandaid

Large Enough For My Heart

We reside in a cruel, cruel world

My heart aches for this world and its inhabitants

I carry the weight of this world on my back...or in my heart rather

NOT by choice...

It hurts my heart like you wouldn't believe

LIVID

I am like extremely upset right now. For a multitude of reasons. And I just needed to vent for a second. I'm not gonna go into detail because it's 11:39 P.M. and I have to wake up in about 6 hours and I have a BIG test tomorrow but I just needed to get it off of my chest.

I mostly am SO SO SO mad because I'm here <--- (Click Me)...when I should be HERE <--- (Click Me Too!) I JUST WANNA GO HOME!!!!

*Deep deep sigh* You know what I really need, I need a hug. I haven't had a hug since my family left (June 27th) and the other day I realized that I NEED a HUG. Even if it's for .5 seconds, I just need someone to affectionately wrap their arms tightly around me...even if in their minds they're squeezing me to death. *Wraps arms around self.......doesn't work* LOL

Annnnnyyyywayyyy.....Please pray for me and my test tomorrow around 12:30 P.M.-ish...that's about the time I'll be taking my test. Please and thank you.

Goodnight and God Bless

P.S.--If You See Me In Your Dreams,

Give Me A Hug Please =)

It's Not So Funny Is It?

My sister referred to me this absolutely wonderfully written and composed

song by Regina Spektor and needless to say,

it made me love her even more.

These lyrics are the truth.

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one laughs at God when the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one's laughing at God when it's gotten real late and their kid's not back from that party yet

No one laughs at God when their airplane starts to uncontrollably shake
No one's laughing at God when they see the one they love hand in hand with someone else and they hope that they're mistaken
No one laughs at God when the cops knock on their door and they say, "We've got some bad news, sir"
No one's laughing at God when there's a famine, fire or flood

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus

God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they've lost all they got and they don't know what for

No one laughs at God on the day they realize that the last sight they'll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes
No one's laughing at God when they're saying their goodbyes

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party while listening to a good God-themed joke or
Or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in the head you think that they're about to choke

God can be funny
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie
Who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus

God can be so hilarious

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war

No one's laughing at God in a hospital
No one's laughing at God in a war

No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
We're all laughing with God

A Day Without Laughter...

Is A Day

WASTED.

~Charlie Chaplin

Don't waste an entire 24 hours...

You will regret it.

See?! ^^ ^Even babies know the real deal!!

It Starts In My Toes Then I Crinkle My Nose

It's Those Small Things,

That Make Your Insides Smile and Light Up

Before the Smile Actually Hits Your Lips...

That REALLY Matter.

The Smile Develops From Somewhere Deep Inside

And You Can Feel It Making Its Way Up From Your Knees To Your Stomach

Up To Both Corners Of Your Mouth and Then...

They Turn Up Ever So Slightly.

Your Eyes Light Up and Next Thing You Know,

Your Whole Face, Your Entire Body, Is On Cloud 9.

And Then, Everything's Alright In The World...

In Your World At Least.

That's ALL That Matters.

I Define Me

"If I Didn't Define Myself For Myself,

I Would Be Crushed Into Other People's

Fantasie's For Me and Eaten Alive."

-Audre Lorde

Heaven Has No Rage...

Like Love to Hatred Turned

Nor

Hell A Fury Like A Woman Scorned

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,

talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of

God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,

we unconsciously give other people

permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,

Our presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson

Step By Step

After Winter Comes the Summer.

After Night Comes the Dawn.

And After Every Storm, There Comes Clear, Open Skies.

~Samuel Rutherford

I received this during my devotion today and felt compelled to share it.

My prayer is that is blesses someone else as much as it blessed me.

I Just Wanna Say...

that...

I LOVE ME SOME BLUE POWERADE!!!

That is all!

Featured Follower! Yay!!

I was featured as one of the Featured Followers on Edkdolce's blog!!

She has this feature for all of her followers as an appreciation and to "get the word out" about other's blogs.

It a fantastic and creative feature and I encourage you to hop on board!

Her blog is also great!

So check out her blog and check me out as one of the featured! =)

Alone Time

I thoroughly enjoy alone time.

I like spending time with me.

It helps me to get to know me better.

I can do what I want, when I want.

Don't have to answer to anyone.

It's a great time, really.

As the picture indicates, being alone does NOT translate into being lonely.

Oh NO! These are 2 totally different things.

Being lonely is more of an emotional state.

It's all in the psyche if you ask me.

Being alone, now that's a whole 'nother ball game.

It's relaxing, enjoyable, not disruptive, awesome!

Spend some time with yourself.

You may learn something new!

*Smiles*

Movie Review!!

I give it 4 out of 5 popcorn bags!

This movie started out fairly well. Laughter from the start. They definitely knew how to capture the audiences attention and laughter will do it every time.

About 1/4 of the way into the movie I felt as though it lost its structure. In other words, the plot seemed to be thrown all over the place and I was kind of like, "Um okay? What? Where does that come in and why was it placed there?" There was about 30 min of this reaction.

However, it did get better and everything somewhat tied in together by the end. Although it did still kind of have me wondering why some things were put into the movie but hey, it's not my movie!

Overall, this was a pretty good movie! I laughed a lot!! A whole lot and that's always a GREAT thing...because laughter is the key to ones heart...at least in my opinion!

Check this movie out and let me know what you think. I didn't go into detail because I didn't want to ruin it for those who haven't seen it. But I do recommend it so go see it!!!

Bad Habits

Are like a comfortable bed...

Easy to get into,

Hard to get out of.

Not My Idea of Fun

I Mean, It's The Truth!

To Know Me Is To Love Me

If You Don't Love Me...

It's CLEAR That You Don't Know Me.

If You Know Me But Don't Love Me...

You Don't Know Me Like You THINK You Do.

Dig A Lil Deeper! ;-)

I Just Have One Question

Was It Worth It???

2010 NBA CHAMPIONS

That's right bay-bee!!

The Lakers have won...yet again!

5th Ring for Kobe!

He didn't play his greatest...

But he showed up and did what he could!

And...

THEY WON!!!!

That is all! =)

Good night and God bless

Greed

Why is it that when God blesses us abundantly...more so than we deserve, we are not satisfied? We are always craving and wanting more instead of being grateful for what He HAS done which He DIDN'T have to do and in most cases SHOULDN'T have.

We are SO undeserving yet we lust after more. Why? Why? Why?

I've been goin through a lot lately and my financial state was one thing that was "on the rocks".

Well, God has blessed me and I praised Him and thanked Him for it and as soon as I was done, I thought to myself, "Man, but I wish I had More."

How FREAKIN SELFISH, UNGRATEFUL, AND GREEDY of me...

Very much so...I'm disgusted right now actually.

Man, I have really got to pray about that and ask God to remove that from my heart and my spirit because that is sooo not cool.

Change

Things have GOT to change...they really do.

Starting.......

I'm not gonna say.

Because every time I say I'm gonna start anew...

I DON'T...

Or I'll start and then stop and uh...I'm tired of that.

FOR REAL!

Lord, help me please

I will S U R V I V E

That's right.

I WILL survive.

Yep, you may have played me and gotten me...again!

BUT you must not know bout me and the GOD I serve.

I will get through this...WE will get through this...

Me and God.

Weeping may endure for a night but..

JOY comes in the morning.

Just like the picture/flower above...

When everything else has been knocked down..

When all other options have failed...

When there's no one left BUT me...

I WILL SURVIVE

----This is one SPEED BUMP on my journey...there will be more.

Now I will just be more prepared and be able to brace myself better for the next one.

Oh, tis so sweet to be His Child.

I'm so excited!!!...And I just can't hide it!

Yep yep yep...
THAT'S RIGHT!! --->this girl right here<--- ME, is soooo excited right now!

And I'm not even for sure why!..well I kinda know but God is just moving so greatly in my life right now! After what seems to have been a loooonnnnngggg rut, i finally have my happiness back! *Hence my next tattoo!...pictures coming when I get it! =)

I just feel Happy!! Yay!

Oh and this is what I'm listening to right now!..one of my fav songs

One more thing...I'm glad blogger saves drafts every few minutes because my internet definitely froze during the production of this here post!

-XOXO

God's Lil Princess

Hey there, Hi there!!..Hola!

Yea so...It's been a little while since I've posted something!

Been kinda busy...

Here's what's been goin on guys!

FINALS!!!...need I say more?! Yea, that was a pretty stressful week!

And on top of that I'm a Resident Assistant at the dorms at the university I attend so we had to do check outs for our residents all that week too!

Talk about stresssssss!! ^^^ See pic above..it pretty much sums up how I was feeling! Oh and on top of that we had drill that weekend and an air show so early mornings and long work days =/

Anywho, as long as that week felt it was finally over as of last week!! Whoo-hoo!

Finally got all my check outs done, done with all my finals aaannnnddd....wait for it...

GOT A 3.43 THIS SEMESTER ON TOP OF EVERYTHING I WENT THROUGH!!

Can you say God is MARVELOUS...I can!

So now I'm back home..moved outta the dorms officially on Wednesday and I'm with my wonderful family once again! I must say it feels so good to be home!! Like I enjoy being on my own and having my own place and everything but my fam has my < 3

Summer time is here...heeyyyyyy and guess where I'll be all summer?! Texas! For training! I'm pretty excited about it...and ready to get it over with at the same time. Anywho, it should be fun.

So that's what's been goin on with Ashli!

What are your summer plans? Do share!

This Means You!

What goes on in the dark WILL eventually come to light.

Karma doesn't play favorites.

You are not an exception..

You are the rule!!

Truth

Chew on that

I remember...

When my life made sense.

Once upon a time, it did.

Sigh...too much goin on...I REALLY, DESPERATELY need a break.

Like, NOW!! Before I EXPLODEDDDDDDD!!!!!

Frustration at it's ultimate finest....

Ima talk to God...and call it a night *sigh*

Love...

What an overused term.

If you type in "Most overused, overrated term" into Google, the word "love" surely has got to pop up.

So what exactly is love???

I mean, is it a feeling we get when we see someone/thing that we simply cannot resist?

I guess it is at the user's discretion because everyone seems to have a different meaning for it.

I've been thinking lately, "What exactly is love and what does it mean to love someone or be in love with them?"

So...when I thought of love the first thing that came to my mind was "unconditional."

Hmmm...Unconditional

Un.con.di.tion.al [uhn-kuhn-dish-uh-nl]

-adjective

1. Not limited by conditions; absolute

This is the meaning of unconditional...Not Limited ...meaning without boundaries, in spite of, regardless of, in defiance of...No Matter What

God. That is my next thought. After EVERYTHING that I've done, ALL of the sins I've committed, ALL of the bad things I've thought or held in my heart, ALL of the times I've ignored Him, ALL of the times I've chosen to take matters into my own hands and trust myself instead of Him, ALL of the times I've not forgiven others as He has forgiven me...after ALL of this, He still loves me.

He has placed absolutely no boundaries, no limits on me/us and the love He shares. He didn't say you've got one more time, or if you promise to stop doing this or that, or I'll shed my Grace on you if...

Wow! So, how many times do WE do this? To God even..."Lord, if you help me pass this test I promise I'll get my act together", "If you heal me this one last time I'll stop fornicating"...

How often do WE put limits on GOD...as if He ISN'T ALMIGHTY...???

God loves us and still, continuously decides to show His Grace and Mercy toward us day in and day out even after we slap Him in the face. Even after we crush His heart and hurt His feelings...

It kind of reminds me of puppies...and NO, I am NOT comparing God to animals, just listen...

When puppies do something bad and we discipline them, they want to snuggle right up under us. They don't run away or show us that they are mad at us for scolding them or show us how much we have hurt them but immediately after, and sometimes during their whoppings, they draw closer near to us. See the connection? Unconditional, In spite of, Even though, No matter what...STILL LOVE YOU

Anyhow, I believe I have found my answer..eureka! Lol even though I pretty much already knew

What is love? GOD..God is Love

Now that my friends is my definition of Love

Classic Love!

Janet...Miss Jackson If You're Nasty

I LOVE her. Always have, always will!

This is one of my FAVORITES!

Enjoy

P.S. Make sure you pause the music to the right ---> before playing the video! ;)

Rough Draft

It just hit me!!

Finally!

Your Past Should Not Be A Rough Draft...

Instead, make it a template.

With a rough draft, we write it all out and have carefully, and maybe sometimes not so carefully, chosen the words we use. We may have been in a big rush at the time of writing it just to be able to hand something in and at some parts we did not thoughtfully consider exactly what it was we were writing. It is not until after we have proofread that rough draft that we discover the mistakes we made and we want to go back and change everything (This is your past).

But, no! That's not what we want to do...we don't want a rough draft. All of the reediting that comes along with it is just fine for a rough draft but unfortunately, our pasts can't be changed. Do not try to. Don't make it a rough draft...make it a template.

Making it a template allows you to look at it, look over it, and make an example of it. See what you did on that rough draft but instead of attempting to change everything around, use it and add to it. And don't keep that template around for too long. Get what you need from it, what it is that you need to change, and put it away until you need it again. Continuously looking over it will only be detrimental to you...It will cause you to continue to dwell on your past and the mistakes you've made and that's unhealthy. In order to move forward we have got to move on and move past.

In essence, let go of your past. Pass it on to God. Sit it as His feet and leave it there. Repent to Him and Let It Go. Clear your hearts and clear your mind and receive God's peace that passes ALL understanding.

I love God, I love you, and I'm learning to love me.

-God's Lil Princess

My Vows

"It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are." -Roy Disney

Man, oh man, oh man...choices. Choices are a huge part of life. We've all heard it..."For every action there is a reaction." Isn't that like some law of nature or something?! I don't know, but it should be if it's not because it is SO true. Whether the decision you make is positive or negative, there will be "consequences" for that choice.

I am learning, living, and experiencing this right now. I have made some great choices and I've made some not so great choices. But in the end, all of the decisions that I've made for the past 20^1/2 have made me into the person that I am today.

I entitled this post, My Vows, because from this day forth, with the help of My Father, big changes will be taking place in my life. I am ridiculously tired of me...and by that I mean I am tired of the way I'm living and want, no WHOLE HEARTEDLY DESIRE, a CHANGE. And with God's help, I'm sure 'nuff gonna get there!

So this post is dedicated to me and the changes WE (God and I) are making and the things I'm vowing not only to myself but to God (Yes, that just made it 2,000 times more serious!)

Without further ado, I present to you, My Vows

On this day, April 7, 2010 I, Ashli Brooke Johnson vow to:

-Put God FIRST always. Even when I THINK I've got it

-Read my Bible more so that I get a full, detailed understanding of my Father

-Take better care of myself...in all aspects of life. This includes taking care of my body, getting enough rest, not putting toxins and waste into my body, etc.

-Not let any man touch me or anything of that nature lest he be my HUSBAND

-Avoid things and people that bring me down and kill my spirit

-Pay better and more careful attention to my family/little sis

-Take care of the blessings God has given me

-Have more passion and heart for things that will not reward me in the end

-Get my joy back..and keep it

-Say what I mean and mean what I say

-Be honest..always. Even if the truth may hurt a little

-Discover me and stay true to myself

-Enjoy the simple things

-Practicewhat I preach

-Take part in things that my heart truly desire

-Not waste my God-given talent

-Pray that my mind and my heart find a common ground

-Love my enemies and do good to those who hurt me or are out to hurt me

-Not judge people..even in my mind

-Thank God more

-Forgive, forgive, forgive

-Talk to God more and seek His face on a daily basis

-Be the best ME that I was created to be and embrace who God has made me to be

-Strive to a mirror image of the woman described in Proverbs 31

These are My Vows and I'm sticking to them! It won't be easy but God didn't promise smooth sailing...He promised a safe landing and that is all that I expect.

I love God, I love you, and quite importantly...I'm learning to love me.

I thank God for life, air, His ever-so sufficient grace, and another day.

God bless you

-God's Lil Princess

Laugh Out Loud Funny!!...Everytime!

This S*** Right Here N****, This S*** Right Here N****....

Is Absolutely HILARIOUS!!!

Now, I know this is kinda old like 2008 BUT...no matter how many times I watch this (it's been about 5 times now and I JUST got done watching it again), I laugh uncontrollably. Every time!! It never fails. Although I don't use curse words at all, I still find this very funny!

He curses about every five seconds, literally, but it still is funny. He talks about Real Stuff...like really real. Things that I agree with wholeheartedly. I like and appreciate how he turns it into comedy. I think it takes a special and talented person to turn matters that are taking place in the world that would otherwise be considered very serious, and have a comical outlook on it and be able to make people laugh!

I wouldn't put him at the top of my "favorite comedians" list but he definitely is on there! Along with Mike Epps, Martin Lawrence, Jamie Foxx, Bernie Mac, Steve Harvey, Cedric the Entertainer (occasionally), and Eddie Murphy...among others.

I just wanted to share this literally Laugh Out Loud Funny movie with you all. If you haven't seen it I definitely recommend seeing it ASAP...that is if you want a good laugh! ;)

Always,

God's Lil Princess

Welp...Here We Go!!

Soooo...a little background.

I've always wanted to start a blog and frequently update it about things going on in my life and things I liked to talk about etc BUT...yes, there's a but...I always felt as though my life were too boring to talk about, much less start a blog about! Ha! What I failed to realize is that I don't necessarily have to talk about the things that happen on a day-to-day basis in my life (this is what I thought blogging was about by the way). Also, my life really isn't as boring as I thought!

So, as a result of this recent EUREKA!!!...I, Ashli Brooke, will begin to blog! Even if I don't get many followers or commenters or whatever, I will continue to blog. I've come to realize that it is something that I mentally enjoy and definitely think I will be able to physically enjoy. It'll also hopefully take over my addiction to...Facebook. Yep, I admit it! I also find myself on the computer a lot (mainly on FB) doing a bunch of nothin!

Alright so I guess this would be considered my first official blog...Yipee! I do hope to get some followers and such. I will be blogging about...well whatever is on my mind, whatever I find, things that God is teaching me, daily inspirations...I mean any and everything! If it has to deal with life, it will be in my blog!

I Am Pretty Excited!!!

P.S. I won't be blogging everyday but I WILL try to keep it frequent

-God's Lil Princess